I don't know if anyone else felt it, but tonight was awesome. Usually when i'm on the data projector i don't get into worship because i'm busy making sure people have words to sing to, but tonight i arrived from work early and went through the songs with the worship team. So when the time came to worship i just seemed to get right into it. Just sang, not to anyone but God. I know worship is not for me, it's for God, but tonight i realised, when you give to God you get back (in a different way than i had in mind, i always thought this was just to do with money). And i got back, i felt so revitalised, i felt the spirit moving in the church. I really loved the service tonight, other than the strain on technology (always dangerous when it comes to relying on computers). The sermon was really heartseeking. We all got a text at the end saying this:
God B W me n evry pass. Gsus B W me on evry hill. Spirit B W me n evry stream. ea step of D jRne I go
I felt so at home in the church this evening. I must say, At AA and Summer's house afterwards, for supper, i was a bit quiet. Why? Because i was constantly being reminded of the people around me, and how important they were to me, i was continuosly thinking of the importance and the influence to my development, my character, my life, those people were. How i would be nothing without them, how with God living in them, I live for them. I think what Randall has constantly reminded me...i think far too much, needs to be applied here too. I am thinking too much. But tonight i really felt God and it was so easy to just sing and worship him in the company of those who matter to me. So as i listen to Till Kingdom Come by Coldplay I...whoops tell a lie, the song has changed.. Miracle Drug by U2. As i listen to U2, i think of how i want to get inside the minds of those who i do care about and want to help out. How i want to open up to those people and let them inside my head. I'm going to stop thinking now.